Nutritional Science Major: “Take time to reflect on your life.”

I don’t know about anyone else, but I need summer vacation now more than ever.

Needless to say, life is getting more and more difficult these days. It’s not because my workload is so heavy or that I’m “struggling” in any of my classes. I was just positively burnt out. Very, very aggressively burned out. My lowest score was 84 points in Orgo Lab (I’m not good at reports lol), and 90 points or higher in everything else. I’m doing well academically, but what about spiritually, emotionally, physically, and mentally? Completely exhausted. I need the summer sun now. I need days where I don’t worry about the next assignment or the fear of waking up late in the morning.

I’m lucky in the sense that I only have one final exam (orgo) before the end of the academic year, but on the other hand I have to retake the National Registration of Emergency Medical Technicians (NREMT) medical exam. ) To obtain your license, you must take a psychomotor exam and pass the written portion of the NREMT. Both are stressful, and if you fail the written exam, you will also fail the class.

There’s no pressure.

As of now, I don’t know what I’m doing. I know it seems like I know what I’m doing and that my life is supposed to be some really cool art college “experience,” but honestly? I’ll make it as I go. Do I really know what I want to do with the rest of my life? Hmm, no. Last night I was having a deep conversation (evening conversations are the best conversations) and I realized that what I want to do with my life is:

1. help people
2. Have fun helping people
3. create a bank
4. Take care
5. learn

I think this is a pretty fair list overall. From what I’ve heard from others, this is a common trend among people approaching or just turning 20. Not everyone knows what they are doing or where they are going, just that they are doing it. something than that there is nothing.

To be honest with everyone here, I feel very, very devastated. I don’t even know why. I have a great life. I have a source of income, great friends, a school I love, and a life that (I believe) many people wish they had the chance to live. Sure, not every moment is great, but it’s better than the life most people in America lead, and I’m very grateful for that.

The author took a sip of water, looked out the window, and sighed.

I have always believed that you can learn something from failure. They always say that you can’t go through life without challenges because you don’t grow into the person you’re meant to be. But what they don’t teach is how badly failure hurts. shame. Disappointment is being disappointed not in who you are, but in who people expect of you and who you expect of yourself. But then I think there will be a rebuild. Something smart that solidifies the existing foundation, or sounds like it.

I’m sure some of you feel or have felt this way. What advice would you give to me, or to others who are experiencing the “Circle of Failure”?

I don’t want to waste my life now. When I think about it, I don’t want to waste it (lol). However, I am determined to spend my summer doing something fun, even if my income is reduced. I think this is another lesson I learned. Life shouldn’t be about money. Yes, we’re circling down the drain with debt and taxes and outrageous food prices, but we’re never drowning. Life is meant to be experienced, like hiking, so it’s not meant to be easy.

You might fall and get some scrapes, but the view at the end will be worth it.

That’s what I want in my life, a view I can admire.

I want to do something important. I want to be part of a community and contribute to that community. After a deep conversation last night, I realized that I truly have an innate love for plants. Additionally, I have a similar affinity for research as well as learning in general. Maybe there’s some light at the end of the tunnel, but here’s our conversation.

Friend: “So… what happens when we reach that light?”

Stunned, I said: “…do you want to get a sunburn?”

One of my favorite things about myself is that I can tell jokes even in difficult situations. Anyway, I had never thought about it that much in my life. What should I do at the end of that tunnel? Even if you can enjoy the scenery, you can’t stay on that mountain forever.

Oh, why does life have to be so vivid? Is it always like this? ? ?

No matter what, I want to think positively and do my best. My therapist tells me to talk to and treat him like a best friend, so I’m going to try that at some point. In any case, to all his 2004 babies and his 20-somethings, you’re not alone in feeling like everything you do feels stupid and pointless. I’m with you 100%. I’m not saying it’s natural for us to feel this way or that this will ever end, but I am saying that things will get better.

Even if I don’t fully believe it myself.

As finals approach, I would like to encourage everyone (including you, staff, teachers, and parents, as I’m sure they read my blog) to take a moment to reflect on their lives. Recommended. what did you do? What feat would mean the world to me? What was your failure? Have you learned from them and passed on those lessons? Good luck to students like me. We’re very close to the end of the semester, but we still have a few more weeks to go. No problem.

Please read it again.

No problem.

It will be amazing who you become in your life. The University of New Haven has some of the brightest, funniest, most honest, and hardest-working students I’ve ever seen in my life. I firmly believe that if you can succeed here, you can succeed anywhere. Believe in yourself because others believe in you.

I hope everyone is having the best week. Don’t forget to take a nap if you can. Always with love to you all.

With peace, love, and lots of peanut butter,
Beatrice ❤️

Beatrice Glaviano ’26 is majoring in nutritional sciences at the University of New Haven.