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Author’s note: This article includes topics such as self-harm, mental health issues, depression, death, and trauma.
I’ve been a fan of Lindsey Stirling for a long time. length time.My family and I were also watching Shadow We came together when one of us found her on the internet and since then we have fallen in love with her music over and over again with every single, video, album and live presentation. And I fell deeper in love than ever with the first single from her next album. her untold eyes. A video that made me think about my inner fractures and how I have healed them.
First some context
We recommend watching the video first, but if you don’t know who she is or about her beginnings, you should understand the background first.
To express her emotions, Lindsay depicts moments that meant a lot to her, both in terms of empowerment and loss, joy and sadness. There are some references to some of her most memorable moments and videos (unfortunately, Shadows is not included), as well as the personal struggles that led her to almost quit, especially to this day. There is also mention of a presentation that makes her cry.
Lindsay has been open about her struggles with mental health issues, particularly depression and eating disorders, which served as the inspiration for her second album. shutter me, especially the title track, which is the second single. As someone who has dealt with my own mental health issues, this really resonates with me. But this single and its video resonated with me.
I’ve always been in a fight-or-flight state with my writing, disillusioned with the results I’ve gotten, and have found myself in a similar situation to Lindsay in that presentation. I saw myself in her pain, hurt, confusion, and her disappointment. I’ve felt it all, and then many times I wanted to give up on what I wanted to admit. But her video gave me another idea for the music “Witchcraft”. It’s not a ritual, it’s a spell or meditation that I felt emotionally.
All different future scenarios
In the first part of this spell, imagine yourself back in your grandma’s room where you started writing your first serious project. She has no problem returning to it because the image is clear in her head. It always brings a sense of nostalgia, so when her rhythm changes, the scene breaks and she allows herself to stay there. Now I’m in my bedroom, writing nonstop with tears in my eyes, but still moving my fingers.
Lindsay Stirling “Unspoken Eyes” [Concord Records]
There, as the song progresses, a lot of light comes in through the windows, which to me represents guidance and healing. As it fills the room, I imagine it entering my body through the pores, and then the scene fades to white, and then I’m on the bathroom floor, with alcohol and toilet paper. and shows me in the bathroom dressing a self-inflicted wound. knees.
Lindsay shows us the grave in this part, and I too go back to the time when I lost my father, and spent every day and sometimes years depressed for various reasons. I cried in my bedroom, I cried in college, I cried in the bathroom again, and we fought. with relatives, etc. Until the song changes again.
I step out of the bathroom, my knees are also cut, and I imagine different versions of me coming to see me just like what happens in the video: a writer, a professional witch, an academic, a journalist, a husband, A father, someone who can visit Venezuela and spend time with family, someone who has family here in the United States. Different images, different future scenarios come to mind, but as soon as you see them with your own eyes, they become very clear. I will leave this part as free as possible until the end.
While I was making the last notes, I went back to my grandmother’s room, and as a pre-teen, I didn’t write anymore, but just put my hand on her shoulder.
battle with phantom
This isn’t the first time I’ve used Lindsay’s music in my work. Just a few days ago, before writing this column, I was listening to “Love Goes On and On” in Amy Lee’s haunting voice. For example, I had her cover “Kashmir” as a prayer to her father and blood ancestors. Whenever she needs to protect herself and her family.
However, this one song was very meaningful to me. Because I could feel myself in every moment of this song. Even that voice at the beginning and end, the vision of her presentation, reminds me of the times I had to fight my own head to move forward.
It’s too early to say anything, but I have a feeling Lindsay’s new album will include more Witchcraft music than I expected. For the time being, I will use this single, video, and memories to heal my inner self and continue noticing changes. We recommend that you do the same only if necessary.
